Finding Your Soul Mate

     I am against love, it is not the fact that I've been hurt so many times before. Many females believe love is nothing unless you are hurt.  I personally just do not understand the aggravation because females put so much into a guy who does not put in the same into her. Sometimes you might have the RARE case where the guy is putting in his all and the female is not. But like I said, it is RARE. I have a problem with the whole definition of Love. I believe it does not even need a definition because not everyone can define it.

      I define love way differently than you do, only because of the way I was brought up as well as my experience which is totally not the same as you. I find love to be the most annoying thing in the world, that doesn't mean I do not acquire it, but I long for more self-love before I decide to go to the outside world searching for it. I long for the person I can't live without, who I can be around for numerous hours and never be bored. The same person who is my best friend and I can tell all of my secrets too. I am not looking for someone to be intimate with just yet , I am only a child growing up slowly. Why rush things before their time? I want someone who has no problem debating (aka arguing) over political issues, our opinions anything mind bottling. That is how I picture my true love , but the love the world portrays only will allow young women to find themselves hurt over and over again. 

      I used to be the girl who tried to always get with every boy no matter if they are friends, I was desperate if I do not say now looking back at my past. I did not know what I want , I just wanted something to fill the void that I was feeling. I remember when I thought I was lucky, and I was dating my ex-boyfriend for over a year and half but it definitely was not right for me. We had different values, different thoughts and at the end we couldn't compromise who we were to make the other person happy. I thought we were in love, I thought I was going to marry this man. I was already changing my last name but all things happen for a reason. 

      Currently, I am single but I find myself  mentally taken. I am talking to someone who makes me smile and happy, every time I see his name whether it is a phone call or text message. I find us talking all day and when we do not , it is definitely weird. I find myself can't stop smiling when I mention his name. Some call this sprung but once again, we have different opinions, because I find this to be the beginning of a great friendship. I wanted nine months before I found this guy who has not disappointed me yet, he inspires me to be better. I have never met a guy to even come close. All I want is this to last as long as possible, I want to feel as though the world is underneath our shoes and every step we take we are overtaking obstacles together.