Fighting

hard to keep this alive

no way i can continue to fight anymore

work out in my head so bad

I wanted it to be back the way it used to be 

thought how could this would effect everyone

when all of it effects me

the backstabbing, the whispers , worried me

the name calling  , the points and the stares, i feared the most

 never imagined my life with them and now  no longer in my life

freightened

silly of me

to fight an army of many

regardless to the fact i knew individually i could take down each one

 more than i bargained for

willing to lose my self-idenity

just to belong

to have a place i could call my own

fighting for the wrong thing

here am i standing before you

no longer fighting for others but fighitng to remain who i am

 for what i believed in 

 what i believed in was false hood

i fought for people who i truly cared about

& never fought to care about themselves

who am i to be selfish

misguided as a person who has values

failed indeed , did not fail myself

actually started a new chapter in my life

a chapter of new beginning

no matter how much i want to go to my previous chapters

constantly pushed right back out because it is no longer for me

who am i to stand in the way of my destiny

who am i to stand in the way of my purpose

who am i to stand in the way of my dreams, goals and vision

i am the reason why i am still stuck in the same places

fought for a misguided truth

but since my eyes have been uncovered

rememebered what my orginial fight for was

which was self-idenitiy.